So I've been interested in the "spiritual realm" for years but have never really got into it. I'm a religious person and I know there can be serious concequences for letting something in or participating in the wrong stuff; therefore, I've always closed my mind to the whole thing. I've felt things before and I know I could see things but I choose to keep my mind closed. I let my brain rationalize it away like most people do. But things have been getting harder to ignore recently. I very rarely remember my dreams but when I do it's always extremely realistic, a terrifying nightmare, and usually spiritual. I've been mauled by a little demon girl so many times....I wake up feeling absolutely terrified...I couldn't stop crying the entire time I wrote them in a journal....and even just writing it on here is making me shake. I hear things and don't know whether to explain them away or pay more attention to them. I swear I see her (this dead girl) out of the corner of my eye, and there's times where I feel like I know where she's at and if I turn and look she'll be there (but she never is). If I'm ever in the dark I feel like I'm going to have a panic attack. I sleep on the top of a bunk and I expect to run into her evertime I crawl into bed...I can't even go into the adjoining room when no one is with me. I know evil feeds off fear but I don't know what I'm dealing with...have I just watched to many movies or what?? (I can't even watch things like "The Grudge" anymore".)
I've had other terrifying encounters too.....my town is very "haunted" and I went to a cemetary with a group of friends. Something there wanted me and it terrified me because I felt like it would take me mentally into a different realm.
Being religious I do pray and such....but I feel like I should know more. I've always felt like I would have special "spiritual gifts" but I don't know how to open myself up to the spiritual realm to recieve them without getting hurt or scared to death (literally)
any suggestions...advice....good links for information?? thnx